NOVEMBER 3, 2025, 1:13 PM:
I just ate enough Twizzlers to kill a small elephant. Or me, maybe.
Hatred can fuel you or it can flay you into thin slices. It can wake you up every day, get you out of bed or off the sidewalk, and make you interact just for the spite. I am using hatred.
Sometimes, you just need to spend a week alone doing nothing but gooning.
Why is no one else willing to try to keep it alive?
This doesn't exist for you. I choose what to put here, not any of your "boundaries." It's marked appropriately and you never need to lay eyes on it should you choose not to.
I am slowly learning what individuals around me know what to say to get what they want and they are slowly learning that it doesn't work on everyone.
Amazing girl names: Lenora, Sheila, Renata, Amelia, Jacqueline, Mary, Beth, Zipporah, Aurilla, Mia
Amazing boy names: Silas, Emory, Ira, Graham, Arthur, Caesar, Ezekiel, Julian
Realizing what you do and don't have control over gives you a lot of agency people will never discover for themselves in their entire lifetime.
END TIME: 1:23 PM
NOVEMBER 7, 2025, 1:35 PM:
Jesus fucking Christ. I woke up at 5:30 this morning feeling like someone stuck their hand down my throat, all the way through my digestive system, out the other end, and then in my uterus and started just thrashing. Also their hand is covered in fire ants and gympie-gympie. It was so bad I needed to vomit. I watched Red Vs Blue for two hours to not focus on my body slowly turning into a werewolf and then finally went back to sleep and slept til 1.
I have been plagued with this terrible, awful, mortifying, vicious feeling that I am going to die for four days. It might happen, it might not, and it feels like I should go to the hospital, but that also feels like overkill.
END TIME: 1:41 PM